He leaves soon and I can be okay with this. If he stayed, it would be too easy to focus my life on him and not my God. And likewise with him. I want God's sovereignty in my life. He is my King. 2007 held so much for me. August was absolutely overwhelming. It took myself death to understand life, it took an earthquake to understand restoration. I am grateful for everything. All of it is a testimony that will hopefully speak to others. This is a testimony. All of my thoughts--no matter how selfish, selfless, cruel, loving, or confused they may be--are my life. And life is beautiful. And I'm beautiful. And the people in my life are beautiful. And I'm happy.
I have my God and he is the sole governor of my life. He has orchestrated each meeting, reunion, and new day of my life. He has hand chosen who I will meet, who I will not meet, and who I will change. He has proven His power, His might, and His compassion. He is constantly forgiving, constantly bestowing grace on me, and always waiting. He is patient, He is calm. He is ready. He is in love with me in a way I could only hope to understand. He is the one and ONLY CONSTANT in my life. He is never changing. Unlike me, he is never, ever changing. And I love, because He loved me first.
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